I thought I planned it out right.

So, remember that time when I said my word for the year was going to be “sustain” and I was going to try and keep a balance that was sustainable to my health and personal life, not just my work life?

It’s been going GREAT. And by great, I mean terrible.

A progress photo of “Ruby” - a 10”x10” English bulldog pastel portrait from this year

A progress photo of “Ruby” - a 10”x10” English bulldog pastel portrait from this year

I started out with good intentions. I did things to set the stage for a better balance. I took on substantially fewer commissions this year. I only accepted the number of events/shows that I felt was manageable for me. I focused on the events that were local and would not require travel beyond a certain radius of my home.

Somewhere along the line, things just became unsustainable. And as much as I tried to set myself up for success, I failed. Part of it was my fault — maybe the number of events I chose is still not a sustainable number for me personally. But part of it was beyond my control and sometimes, we just have to accept that things won’t go exactly as planned. Especially when dealing with chronic illness.

So, here I am trying to reset once again. Sometimes this is the way it goes as a creative with a disability. We try, sometimes we fail, and then we adjust our course and try again. What have you had to adjust your path on recently?